hello y’all i am launching my new blog!
its kinda gonna be my hub for content creation, blogging, pictures, videos, sermons, reviews…and whatever else comes my way
(i recommend seeing it on a computer rather than the mobile version)
check it out and let me know what you think.
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hello y’all i am launching my new blog!
I have no idea what God wants for my future…and I am totally ok with that
My current favorite app of the week is the tiny sound monster called figure. i’ve been messing around with it’s big brother “reason 5” on my mac and love its quality and sounds, the program cost about $300 😦 not too happy about that ): but that’s just the cost of these things.
So when I saw that the good folks at propellerhead came up with a 99 cent app! i was downloading this sucker before i even knew what it was…and what is it…a toy? an instrument? a studio? yes, yes it is…
my secret goal is to some how work this app into a worship set on a sunday.
sorry android-ers don’t think they have it for you..yet…hopefully…
i am a consumer whore…not in the sense that i buy everything and anything that comes my way, i’m not rich enough for that. but i am more of a consumer of content. i read hundreds of blog posts, with hundreds more pending in my google reader, i’m subscribed to dozens of youtube channels, when i’m out of the house i’m constantly streaming podcasts, npr news, or some new album i’ve just purchased off iTunes…not to mention movies and tv. and in the midst of all this consumption…i am fooled into feeling like i am some how…getting smarter? participating in the social conversation? staying relevant? or feeling like i’ve accomplished something…when all i’ve been is…just another consumer.
not that consumption is itself a bad thing, consumption is necessary…but consumption without purpose, without production is just digital soul obesity.
i want to be a producer…not a consumer. to create, take pictures, make videos, write, make music, build communities…
i have been in a season of peace…a time of abundance and joy. thank you LORD. it was more than i could have ever asked for. i am so thankful. but last night…it seems peace time is over…
it’s time for battle again.
i was spiritually blindsided last night, caught off guard by the enemy…or by humbled God? Maybe both?
all i know is that i was rendered useless and brought to my knees…
i am reminded that i am nothing. and that God is everything. i am weak and filled with doubts. i have nothing to offer these students.
So Lord train these hands for war and my fingers for battle… ps 144
#54 —–> Song performed by my cousins on two cellos during this picture
growing up, every monday morning before i went off to the bus stop, my dad would have me kneel and he would put his hand on my head (messing up my hair) and pray for me…bless me.
thank you father for always praying.
thank you FATHER for always answering.
I have come to realize the reality of this war…every sin I commit…I am giving the enemy another weapon to use against me, against the people I love, and against His kingdom…
(———> song #56, don’t play it till the middle of the post)
so my school bill came in…my financial aid didn’t cover me this summer. I don’t have the money to pay for it. I am broke and i’m getting married in 2 months…so what to do? Get a loan? Go into debt for the first time in my life? Or sell the most valuable thing i own…yup that one 😦
One last ride…I fire up ‘ducky’ one last time. No helmet no jacket…just me and my monster (please don’t do this…its illegal in GA, but this was super early in the morning as the sun was rising nobody around so….) MUSIC #56 starts now…
Racing around the empty streets of Decatur…destroying this still quiet morning with the sound of my 750…this sound that made me buy it two years ago. The cool air on my skin…the sun light peaking through the trees…leaning into corners, revving obnoxiously loud, rpms screaming…good morning Decatur. Sure i’ve had my fights with this guy…breakdowns, fuel leaks, dead batteries…but the good memories out shine the bad. The starry nights on country roads, riding through thunderstorms and not dying, falling asleep on it on my way to Chicago and…and…the FREEDOM…riders you know what i am talking about. The kind you can never feel inside those ridiculous four wheeled box prisons…
man i didn’t know i could be so emotionally attached to an inanimate object. but seeing some one else drive off with it that morning…i had to fight the urge in my hand to wave to it as it roared off.
good bye (waves)
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scattered thoughts about the summer retreat of fire and rain (music #57 ——> SMS performance edition)
“Lord here I am. It seems like it has been so long since I had to preach Your WORD. The confidence in which I walked has been stripped of me. The energy…the joy…confidence…I don’t know what I am doing, I don’t feel energetic…I don’t feel ambition…I lack a vision…I just want to be done, there is no excitement
Was the confidence i had in my past…pride? Was the passion built upon a trust in my own abilities?
I don’t know…I pray that it wasn’t. I really thought I was trying to be faithful
and now i am brought to my knees…desperate for You.
desperation…it doesn’t feel good…is that where I am always supposed to be…it kinda sucks…what about the joy?
God I am so very tied…i feel so empty…Lord remind me of what is my purpose…to preach your WORD to your people…to your children.”
30 minutes before final night service…
LORD I don’t have anything to say! Been wresting for days for words and I only have two…rain and fire!
What does it mean?…
suddenly the words start to pour out of my heart on to the pages like a torrent of water…
praise band/counselors push back the service to 7:30! I can’t stop…i need to write down this word…
lives are recommitted, souls are saved, hearts are broken and healed, people set free…
then the joy… (crazy-stupid-loud praise! freedom!)
The battle in the night…
the enemy tries to take away the blessings…the attacks come one after another…
JESUS is LORD! JESUS is LORD!
you will not take away our joy devil…because He has won! We have won!
Is that all you got?!?!
“For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Romans 8:38-39
the dawn breaks…the night of battle is over…thank you LORD.
you are faithful…the sun rises and the darkness is overcome…
i am so thankful…i feel so full.
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